Sunday, July 8, 2007

Venting Publicly

Do bad things really happen in Threes? Wouldnt that be the silliest fate to man. Its like, if one thing 'bad' happened we could just sit back with a ice cold margarita and count the second and third! Insane! But this is the good old fate we live in. Ha, i hope not.
Worrying over things is the reason people believe this sort of thing. If its not one thing in life its not. The best example is money. When you dont have it you worry about it and when you swimming in it your worrying about the IRS, the stock market risk, wheather she/he loves me only because of it. Its a never ending cycle. But not so never ending... reason being, old people seem so happy to us because most have realized that in life, everything really does pass and we get through it. We manage to find the rent, get that bag we always wanted, take that vacation, hell, stay alive! Its hard to enjoy the things we have when the mind is boggled with worry. I'm sure that people that worry tend to have high blood pressure and die early. Thats harsh but its true i bet.
So back to reality. I worry, you worry, we all worry. Worries can stem from wishes and wants which are the things that drive our futures. But lately i have been having these deep thoughts about this 'love' thing. I recently watched this great chick flick and i couldnt help but watch it three times in ONE DAY. Reason being that i wished so that happiness and excitement that leading lady found. Why do movies drive those of us who dont have love into a shallow depression with story lines that never -that the average person- experiences? They got what they wanted though... me watching it three times. Its not fair! Why are some of us madly and happily in love while the rest of us, dont know what any of that is about ... welll for more than the inital three weeks of the average relationship. I am sick of it.. this deliberate taunting. But yes, not sick enough, because i re-ordered it on netfilx.
People make millions talking about love and relationships. The reason they do is because no one knows what the hell they are talking about. There are one hour talk shows... sorry without ads 40 min talkshows about this. Greg Barron apparently... what a crock! Can one person.. much less a man! know anything. Its impossible. if he weren't as good looking he would be at home wathching Dr. Phil and Oprah trying to come up with a new book...." He should just F himself" -if he's just not into me..... and then there is Dr. Phil who i am not against, but gosh, he is so condesending ... well they all are. The worst one is Dr. I cant remember, but he is on before Greg on another station. Anyway the best advise i ever got, was when i was on a flight somewhere and sat next to an elderly gentleman who told me he had been married for over 30 years. I was amazed, i was 19 or something, and i asked him... 'How did you manage that?' He said you have to constantly work at it. And ofcourse spend time apart.. he travels occasionally for work. He described relationships as something that constantly needs attention.... not the person... the connection. So knowing this bible scripture... i thought it was easy to do. Ha! Its going to take me a good 10 years to work out some kind of methodology. I've learnt so far... you have to start working from the begining. Because the longer you wait the harder it is. After a while sleeping and ignoring things become so much easier and 'better'. By that time your too passive.
Anyhow.
How do we find that 'one' the NEO of our hearts and soul? How many times will we cross paths with our future mate without knowing.. Isn't that evil... when you could be spending every breathing moment together.... Its not Fair I tell you, its not. But what can you do...
nada but have faith in fate and wait.

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